I’ve learnt that it’s not easy to surrender and my mind has in the past been very strong and wants to control due to fear. Fear is in our mind past down over centuries. It’s a defense mechanism and we just need to know that and when it hits us, be aware of it and not overwhelmed by it. It’s an illusion. It’s a default mechanism – the fight or flight mechanism that’s so deep rooted. Don’t fight it. Acknowledge it and pause and choose to act. I have read this somewhere that if the heart is expanding and says yes and there is a fear then that is what one must do!! I believe so too.